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Five Songs About Fisting*

Friend of Fleshbot Judy McGuire has a brand new book out, and it’s chock full of sex, drugs, and rock ‘n roll. Unfortunately, there was one list that the publisher deemed too hot to print–but lucky for you, we’ve got a copy of it right here. Take a gander at this list of lyrical love for fisting…and then go buy The Official Book of Sex, Drugs, and Rock ‘n’ Roll Lists and see what other awesomeness it has to offer.

1.) “Fist Me This Christmas,” The Wet Spots
This internationally acclaimed cabaret duo write elegant songs about inelegant topics. In this one they blend fisting and Christmas (Fistmas?) “Leave the gifts, just bring the Crisco/ Cause Christmas means fisting to me.”

2.) “FISTFUCK,” The Sexless
These hot BDSM Metal Japanese female doms do bondage and suspension on stage, while dressed in latex. They even have a horn player!

3.) “Fist Fuck,” Nine Inch Nails
The “Broken” EP is better known for containing the single “Happiness in Slavery,” but after it won a Grammy, Trent predicted that his tombstone would someday read “Said ‘Fist Fuck,’ Won a Grammy.”

4.) “I Like the Girls,” Tricky
Trip-hopping, occasional-Massive Attack-er Tricky’s story of bringing two pros home for the night included him watching, “See me laying for the queen all this fisting.”

5.) “Moral Distortion,” Agoraphobic Nosebleed
These drum machine grindcore vets describe “visions fisting young cunts” and “sabotaging humanity.”

Bonus Track:
Of Montreal
“Teenage Unicorn Fisting”
Sadly, not as erotic as the title might lead you to believe.

*Fisting: Occasionally called “fist-fucking”, “handballing,” or just plain “awesome”, fisting is a sexual act involving the insertion of the hand into the anus or vagina. The fister enters the orifice slowly with lubed fingers and thumb held straight and together, then balls the hand into a fist once fully inserted into the fistee. Safely enjoyed by many, fisting stimulates the prostate or g-spot and creates a sensation of “fullness” for the receiver.

Jiz Lee is a porn star known for an androgynous gender-bending appearance, copious female ejaculation, slinging large strap-on dildos, champion fisting, and frisky, sex-positive attitude about sex. The AVN-nominated-fucker first appeared in Shine Louise Houston’s The Crash Pad and has starred in both indie and crossover mainstream adult performances. Jiz was most recently honored as Feminist Porn Awards’ Boundary Breaker. A web geek and philanthropist, Jiz blogs and raises money for queer and kinky charities at jizlee.com.

2012 Feminist Porn Award Winners

I’m heading back to the airport to hop back on a plane for San Francisco.

Last night was a blur of friendly faces and happy, sexy people. I’m so proud to be a part of it, to watch it grow, to watch it reach people. To watch it inspire and influence ideas.

I cheered as folks like Drew DeVeaux, Tristan Taormino, Nenna, N Maxwell Lander, Buck Angel, Courtney Trouble and Tina Horn, James Darling, Erika Lust,  and Carrie Gray took to the stage to accept recognition. I am honored to have accepted the awards for Shine Louise Houston and the gang at CrashPadSeries.com, and on behalf of Cheryl Dunye, and the brilliant cast and crew of MOMMY IS COMING. And, I was positively elated to receive an award myself, for Karma Pervs at JizLee.com.

I am blessed.

Also, I managed to make it through the night with continuous surprise gifts of Rum & Cokes, thanks to a little suggestive tweet and the technical assistance from GirlzPorn.com which fed the Twitter stream and also live-screened video of the event.

I loved the performances, which featured Ill Na Na: Diverse Dance Project (Sexy Ass Divas!!!), Skilled Hoop Clown Genderfuckery by Olive-or-Oliver, balloon-popping burlesque by the multi-talented CoCo La Creme and a surprise performance by the legendary man with a pussy, Buck Angel himself. The night ended on a high note. Thank you to Carlyle Jansen and Carla Henderson, hosts Elvira Kurt and Ryan G Hinds, and all the smart sexy staff and volunteers at Good For Herr!

Without further ado, here are the 2012 Feminist Porn Winners, though everyone is a winner in my book.

2012 Feminist Porn Award Winners

Hottest Lesbian Vignette - Boutique by Jincey Lumpkin, Girlfriends Films
Sexiest Short - Emile by N Maxwell Lander
Steamiest Straight Movie - The Female Voyeur by Petra Joy
Most Deliciously Diverse Cast - FUCKSTYLES by Courtney Trouble/Tina Horn, Trouble Films
Most Arousing Adaptation - Last Tango by Nica Noelle, Mile High
Smutty School Teacher Award for Sex Education - Expert Guide to Advanced Anal Sex by Tristan Taormino, Vivid
Hottest Kink Movie –  Viscious Strap-on Bitches by Julie Simone, Julie Simone Productions
Hottest Dyke Film - Hella Brown: Real Sex in the City by Nenna, Feelmore Entertainment
Orgasmic Original Concept - Mommy Is Coming by Cheryl Dunye, Jurgen Bruning
Most Tantalizing Trans Film - Sexing the Transman XXX by Buck Angel, Buck Angel Entertainment
Heartthrob of the Year – James Darling
Movie of the Year - Cabaret Desire by Erika Lust, Lust Films
Honourable Mentions:
Brunch Bunch: Queerly SF by Ian Sparks, Dolores Park Studios
Seminal by Bren Ryder
Switch Hometown Hotties by Carrie Gray
Trespass by Ned Mayhem
Honoured Websites:
CrashPadSeries.com
DaneJones.com
lilycade.com
JizLee.com
If you’re in Toronto, check out the rest of the events at Good For Her which include an open relationships workshop by Tristan Taormino and a Dirty Talking class by Tina Horn.
Toronto, you court me so… I cannot wait to come back.

[Image credit: Jiz Lee]

[This post is a part of Fleshbot's Jiz Lee Week.]

Bathtub, Bubbles, Bubbly: A Karma Pervs Preview

I don’t know how I got so lucky. Not only did Fleshbot’s very own Editor and Publisher Lux Alptraum invite me to blog for JIZ WEEK; she also agreed to strip down and bare it all for my charity porn project, Karma Pervs.

Lux’s generosity comes at a timely moment, as tonight is the Feminist Porn Awards and who better to “walk the walk” and return to the realm of the flesh than the strange girl herself. She hinted at it on Twitter, now see a sneak peek at Lux naked! A full gallery will go live in May for Karma Pervs to benefit NARAL, a national organization protecting female reproductive rights. Big props to seasoned photographer Courtney Trouble, who is well-apt to working in tight places and challenging lighting situations.

Lux is my recipe for sexy and sudsy fun — just add water!

[Credits: Jiz Lee and Lux Alptraum for Karma Pervs, photos by Courtney Trouble]

[This post is a part of Fleshbot's Jiz Lee Week.]

It’s Today! The 2012 Feminist Porn Awards

Last night, a theater full of Toronto’s finest (and a handful of sexy out-of-towners) sat in a beautifully renovated theater watching clips from four panelists: NennaBuck AngelN Maxwell Lander, and Erika Lust. Scenes explored explicit sexuality spanning gender, orientation, race and cinematic styles. What followed was a panel and audience Q&A moderated by CoCo La Creme which addressed the pornographers’ thoughts on how they incorporate feminist ideals and narratives into their work, how they cast their projects, their obstacles and accomplishments, thoughts on artistic merit, and deconstructions of patriarchal themes. It was both enlightening to hear the directors’ contemplation, and left much food for thought.

Shine Louise Houston has said, “Talking about porn is like dancing about architecture.” Having a BA in Dance, I couldn’t agree more. In this line of work, there’s no right or wrong in sexual interpretation, and for me, it’s the diversity of perspectives — much like the diversity of the work itself — that matters when it comes to presenting alternative visions of porn. One point I did walk away with, is that no matter what the producer’s experience, style or execution, as long as the intention is good (consensual, ethical, or [insert your definition of "good porn" here...]), one should be stand firmly and be proud of what they are making.

My personal motivations behind pornography can be summarized ultimately by the desire to have “a good time”. Vague? Well, it’s what’s in my head at the moment; a trestle of culminating crotches, orgasms, and socio-political agendas. More confusion? Read Stoya’s essay on Warren Ellis’ blog and jump on back here… Ok, you back? Cool. Sorry if that didn’t help either. Perhaps porn can be as complicated as it is incredibly, stupidly, simple. Maybe that’s also why it’s so often, and questionably, art

The 2012 Feminist Porn Awards are tonight. I’m part nervous, part curious, and part thrilled. This year I’m involved in 11 nominated works. You could say that I’ve had my fingers in a little bit of everything… the double entendre would be a literal one. And yes, I’m proud.

What works am I in that have been nominated, you ask? Take a deep ocular breath and read on:

FUCKSTYLES features re-edited scenes from QueerPorn.TV, including a beautiful and artsy scene of myself and fellow genderqueer performer Papi Coxxx. Gush: The Official Guide to the G-Spot & Female Ejaculation features a solo scene within the context of Dr. Carol Queen’s beginner sex ed for couples. Live Sex Show was a live performance featuring myself and Nina Hartley filmed during the Center for Sex & Culture’s Masturbate-a-thon. What’s special about this particular film is that it includes explicit vaginal fisting, something usually cut out of most distributed DVDs, but a few sex-positive retailers are awesome enough to fight the censorship and carry it! Mommy is Coming is Cheryl Dunye’s explicit raunch comedy filmed in Berlin; in it I play Teo and have a lighthearted BDSM scene with Judy Minx and Lil Harlow. It premiered at Berlinale and is now hitting film festivals across the globe! Taxi Vol 2 includes an emotionally intense scene with myself and Dallas Fivestar, as well as an AVN Nominated three-way with Madison Young and Nic Switch. Padded Submissives includes a scene with Kellly Shibari and Courtney Trouble, which I shot at Jamye Waxman’s crib. BobbiStarr.com includes a POV scene with me and Bobbi from her film, Vicarious
CrashPadSeries.com is directed by Shine Louise Houston and includes several scenes I am in — this summer is it’s 5th Anniversary! NoFauxxx.com is Courtney Trouble’s first website, including great photos and scenes from her Good Releasing films and more. And my own site JizLee.com  Hey that’s me! — is nominated and includes my membership section “Karma Pervs”, an erotic philanthropic art project where I’ve raised over $3500 so far towards sex-positive, queer and kink friendly non-profit organizations and causes. (And, you know, make sexy art like the Twincest image featured here.) 

That was a mouthful. (But wait, there’s more!) Here’s the complete list of nominated works below. Tomorrow I’ll post the winners and a recap. You can also tune-in online via Twitter #FPA2012 or the live-streaming by GirlzPorn.com to catch it in real time. 

And do — DO — click through the links, and let me know what you find. 

2012 Feminist Porn Award Nominations
Title Director Company
A Night at Kinky General Severe Society Films Severe Society Films
Adventures of evil Dia Severe Society Films Severe Society Films
Anchor Anatomic Courtney Trouble Trouble Films
Babes in Bondage 4 Julie Simone Julie Simone Productions
Boutique Jincey Lumpkin Girlfriends Films
Brunch Bunch: Queerly SF Ian Sparks Dolores Park Studios
Cabaret Desire Erika Lust Lust Films
Dirty Movie Deadline JoyBear Pictures JoyBear Pictures
Emile N Maxwell Lander N Maxwell Lander
Expert Guide to Advanced Anal Sex Tristan Taormino Vivid Ed
Extra Credit Tristan Taormino The Smitten Kitten
Fucking Different XXX Assorted Jurgen Bruning
FUCKSTYLES (of the queer and famous) Courtney Trouble/Tina Horn Trouble Films
Gush: Official Guide G-Spot & Female Ejaculation Dr. Carol Queen Good Releasing
Hardworking Girls Lily Cade Filly Films
Hella Brown Nenna Feelmore Entertainment
Hotel Jincey Lumpkin Girlfriends Films
Julie Simone is a Dominatrix Julie Simone Julie Simone Productions
Live Nerd Girls Lily Cade Filly Films
Live Sex Show Courtney Trouble Trouble Films
Match-Mates JoyBear Pictures JoyBear Pictures
Mommy Is Coming Cheryl Dunye Jurgen Bruning
Mouiller – Get Wet AfroDisiac Cherry Juiceboxxx
Naked Love – Ea’s Garden Sarah Koppel Koppel Animation
Padded Submissives Severe Society Films Severe Society Films
Pervy Photographer Ruby Day Ruby Day Productions
Seminal Bren Ryder Bren Ryder
Sexing the Transman XXX Buck Angel Buck Angel Entertainment
Submissive Slut Julie Simone Julie Simone Productions
Switch Hometown Hotties Carrie Gray Carrie Gray
Switch Pride Live Carrie Gray House of Switch
Taxi Vol. 2 Jincey Lumpkin Juicy Pink Box
The Female Voyeur Petra Joy Petra Joy Ltd
Last Tango Nica Noelle Mile High
Masseuse Nica Noelle Mile High
The Thought of Her Louise Lush Indigo Lush Films
Therapy Jincey Lumpkin Girlfriends Films
Through A Looking Glass Ripley Mirandola & Lolix Bathysphere Productions
Trans Women and Strap-Ons Tobi Hill-Meyer queerporntube
Trespass Maggie Mayhem Mayhem Multimedia
Viscious strap on bitches Julie Simone Julie Simone Productions
 
Website Nominations: 
BobbiStarr.com                 CrashPadSeries.com                DaneJones.com     gooddykeporn.com
JizLee.com juliesimone.com liandradahl.com     lilycade.com
lustcinema.com meetthemayhems.com nofauxxx.com        queerporn.tv
queerporntube.com pornographiclove.com rubysdiary.co     theartofblowjob.com

[Photo credit: Twincest (Syd Blakovich/Jiz Lee, Karma Pervs)

[This post is a part of Fleshbot's Jiz Lee Week.]

Public. Provocative. Porn. 

Tonight is the Feminist Porn Awards’ screening event, “Public. Provocative. Porn. The Year’s Best in Feminist Film”.

Featured are selections from four amazing pornographers ranging in experience, style, and perspectives on ethical models in pornographic cinema. It’s a real treat to see the work screened in a huge theater — it’s not everyday you watch pornography on the big screen along with hundreds of other people in the room. And, it’s also not everyday you get to hear the directors themselves speak in a Q&A panel following the presentations. I’ve attended a few in the past, featuring directors and performers such as Carlos Batts, Cheryl Dunye, Shine Louise Houston, April Flores, Tobi Hill-Meyer, Drew DeVeaux, Tristan Taormino and so many more. As always, the discussion is masterfully facilitated by CoCo La Creme. This year, the panel features Erika Lust, Buck Angel, Nenna, and N Maxwell Lander.

Erika Lust is the skilled Swedish director (residing in Barcelona, Spain) behind Lust Films. She crafts films with a glossy, cinematic flare with attention to detail and sensuality. I would love to work with her! Buck Angel is one of the most well-known transsexual male performers carving a strong name for himself in the mainstream porn business and paving the way for other transmale performers to follow. I loved his educationally sexy Sexing the Transman XXX and am excited about the sequel. Nenna is the owner of Feelmore510, a new Adult Gallery in Oakland. I first met her on the set of Shine Louise Houston’s CHAMPION: Love Hurts, where she played the Referee! Since that time she’s gone on to produce two fantastic films, one with Good Releasing Tight Places: A Drop of Color, and the latest, Hella Brown: Real Sex in the City. I first met Toronto’s ownN Maxwell Lander through her cutting-edge fashion portraiture including luminaries such as Kate Bornstein. Max most recently has formed Figure 3: Films, and I can’t wait to see what happens next.

The event is tonight (Thursday, April 19th 9:30-11:30pm) at the Bloor Hot Docs Cinema. Remaining tickets are available at the door if you’re local. Otherwise, tune in to #FPA2012 on Twitter to catch posts of the action.

[Photo credit: N Maxwell Lander]

[This post is a part of Fleshbot's Jiz Lee Week.]

Seeing Is Believing: Cognitive Neuroscience In A Queer Porn Renaissance

I know a gal who loves porn. She works at San Francisco’s sex toy retailer Good Vibrations and her passion is erotic cinema. On any given day you’ll find her enthusiastically making recommendations for everything from the adult industry’s most acclaimed flicks to the most niche of pervy moving pictures. When met with skeptical exclamations that porn is either evil–or boring–she’ll simply protest: “Shush. You just haven’t found one you like!”

Context is everything, and pornography is no exception. Events like Toronto’s Feminist Porn Awards add further testament that the ownership and agency of sexual pleasure is no longer reserved to the good ole boys’ club. Even porn has the potential to be a medium for sexual revolution. And as a financially profitable industry – raking in a wildly speculated $13 billion annual estimate (more than people pay on movie tickets, art shows, and all the performing arts combined) – why shouldn’t porn be a platform for gender and sexual equality?

The recent boom of projects from queer porn companies such as Pink & White Productions (CrashPadSeries.com), QueerPorn.TVDolores Park StudiosNenna Presents, and two dozen more small indie companies owned-and-operated by people who identify within the queer community as dykes, genderqueers, transfolk and more – has created a community with its own market. Fans of queer porn are quick converts when they discover videos portraying sex with people to whom they can actually relate. The experience is ultimately sublime. It’s validating, it’s exciting, and it’s highly erotic.

Porn is more than voyeurism; it’s vicarious SEX!  When we see pornographic images, our brain uses the same mirror neurons that scientists describe in cognitive neurology as those which give us the ability to infer each other’s mental states (ie: desires and beliefs). Called ‘Simulation Theory’, it is the idea of empathizing (subconsciously) with the person we’re watching.

The concept is not so new; in many ways, mirror neurons are a neurological explanation for many of the performing arts. For example, directors understand how to create a vicarious reality. Audiences participate in a ‘willing suspension of disbelief’, a theory popular since its inception around 17th century literature which describes a provisionally suspension of judgment which leads to the engagement of the viewer to the work (otherwise the viewer would possibly question the validity of the narrator) and thus believable positioning around behaviors, ideas, and actions.

If you’ve ever felt your leg twitch while watching a dance performance, you’ve experienced a sympathetic motor response in kinetic intelligence. This twitch is not far off from the often synchronically rhythmic clinching of buttock muscles experienced when watching sex. Whether it is theater, dance, sports, or movies, Stimulation Theory blurs the distinction between the audience and performers.

To propose a connection between audience and actor is profound when it comes to the creation of queer identity around sexuality. This means queer/feminist porn has the power to validate the sexual identities of queer viewers as much as it does the potential to educate the curious. Queer/Feminist porn normalizes sexual and gender identities and presenting a more accurate depiction of behavior and desire to those who have never seen it. For a non-queer audience to watch and become engaged with queer porn performers means a growth in understanding of others and an intimate relation to themselves. When the fear of another’s identity is driven by confusion and insecurity about the unknown, the very act of watching builds familiarity. This sexual education has the potential to abolish the stereotypes and misconceptions which form the arguments of both hatred and apathy.

Need an example of porn doing good? There’s plenty. For example, Trannywood Picture’s films portray sex between all kinds of men, including transmen and cisgender men. The term “cisgender” means that one’s own gender identity matches the gender they were assigned at birth. Some describe it in simplified terms as “the opposite of transgender”. By representing a variety of queer men, the company presents pairings of male sex not commonly seen in popular gay porn. This vision is empowering to couples in such partnerships, or individuals interested in queer male sex. Trannywood educates those new to the idea of having sex with a transman by presenting both a visual video documentation, as well as informational pamphlet with guides on safer sex, packing tips, and how to create your own strap-on harness. With videos of sexual encounters demonstrating safer sex practices, the company shows cultural responsibility and visibility. Empowerment through porn? Fuck yes.

Those who can identify through porn with the performers as people whom they can relate to via body size, race, ability, gender, sexuality, orientation, sex behaviors, desires, and responses seeing this shared experience on screen validates their identities in an incredibly intimate way. Experimentation with queer sexual media and self-creationism of our individual sexual images is increasingly accessible with the rapid availability of affordable consumer-level camera and web applications. Porn can elevate sexual rights and pleasure, and it’s an art form worthy of exploration and potent with possibilities. We like what we see.

[Photo credit: Jiz Lee & Syd Blakovich on BlueBlood.com]

[This post is a part of Fleshbot's Jiz Lee Week. Versions of this post first appeared in Art XX Magazine Column June 2009 (Now called Aorta Magazine).]

Flashback: My Virgin Voyage to the Feminist Porn Awards

My first Feminist Porn Awards was also the first time I traveled outside the USA by myself. (There’s a hundred good things doing porn has brought to me, and travel (or at least getting over my fear of travel) is one of them.) 

I more than a bit nervous about the trip. As I shuffled up to Customs with my newly acquired passport, I could feel my throat tightening and my mouth getting dry. The man at the Customs resembled an interrogation officer. He beckoned me to approach his booth. 

Raising an eyebrow to address me: ”This is your first time traveling to Canada… what brings you out here?” 

The answer of course was porn, but could I just simply say that? 

I stammered. 

Should I tell him about the Feminist Porn Awards and about my previous wins, and the projects I was nominated for? Would he declare it an oxymoron and grill me on the concepts of “feminist” “porn”? It’s legal to make porn in Canada, however I had some DVDs in my carry-on and it suddenly occurred to me that having materials on my person might not be as legit. Would he search my bag? Would he go through the images on my phone? It’s technically a computer, etc…. *gulp* I hadn’t considered this part of the trip. 

“I’m staying with a friend.” I kinda-sorta fibbed. 

The raised eyebrows shot up higher. “How do you know this friend?” In the back of my head I heard a little voice chirping “porn, porn, porn, porn, porn…” Ignoring it, I blurted: ”A friend I met online, through the internet.” 

D’oh! Why did I say THAT? The Customs Officer adjusted his position on his chair, leaning up over the booth at my virgin passport and cleared his throat. 

“So you’re traveling into another country for the first time to stay with a ‘friend’ whom you’ve never met before?” I couldn’t tell if his domineering stance was skepticism or concern for my safety. Of course I could handle my own traveling decisions, why didn’t he just stamp me and let me through?… now I was digging a hole. “I’ve been corresponding with her for a long time, I am sure it will be fine. 

“Are you staying with this friend?” He relaxed a bit, picking up the stamping implement in one hand. 

“No, at a hotel.” I eased a bit, too. 

“Well… okay.” And with that the stamp came down, the first of many imprints on my passport. 

I feel silly about this, even today. But how was I to know? I thought I was playing it safe… Now I’ve grown to be more secure in my travels. Coming in through Customs yet again, I placed my travel documents confidently on the counter and responded, with a smile, “I’m here for the Feminist Porn Awards!” 

My Customs Officer gave the slightest curl of lip, and she asked, “Is that here in Toronto?” 

“Yes”, I replied. “It’s an annual event hosted by a sex toy store called Good For Her.” 

“Nice”, she said, with a firm press of the stamp. “Enjoy!” 

I will. 

[At top: photo by N. Maxwell Lander; Blindfold Project, Jiz Lee's Karma Pervs]

[This post is a part of Fleshbot's Jiz Lee Week.]

Does Your Mother Know? How To Come Out Like A Pornstar

I’m working on an eBook anthology that will present several different looks at coming out — or NOT — about pornography, from the point of view of porn performers, producers, videographers, photographers, and other people in the industry.

Coming out (or avoiding the question) about porn can involve a lot of precarious situations. Many of us are parents, lovers, friends, co-workers, children, grandchildren, neighbors, customers, and the nice person who smiled at you on the bus. Whether you know it or not, we’re a part of your community too.

Despite the fact that pornography is (mostly) a legal profession, there’s still a ton of stigma associated with the work. This social stigma reflects itself on the people close to us; our friends and lovers. Having recently (and ongoingly) worked with issues of coming out with some of my family members, I discovered a new interest in the topic.

I am seeking submissions of personal narratives from porn performers, videographers, photographers, producers, directors, web producers, industry writers and reviewers, and anyone else who works in the field of adult videos, websites, and other explicit content. The current focus is on submissions approximately 1000 words, but longer or shorter works will be considered. (I will also accept submissions that are creative, including poetry, visual art, music and video as supplemental elements involved in the promotion of the final ebook.)

SUBMISSION GUIDELINES:

  • Please provide your experience coming out (or not) and whatever details about the situation that feel comfortable to you and the parties involved.
  • Please include name changes, pen names, or anonymous submissions.
  • Writers retain rights and may publish their work at any time, as they see fit. Exclusivity is not required.
  • Please send as a Word, Text, or Google Doc, or in the body of the email.
  • If your work is selected, I will contact you in regards to publishing information, payment, and contracts.
  • If your work is selected, I will contact you in regards to any desired biographies and website URLs.

Email: Jiz@JizLee.com

I will respond to all submissions no later than October 11th, 2012. (National Coming Out Day.)

So, what was your experience like? Or what information do you withhold? Do you work behind the camera in video, photography, editing or web production, and are you out about it? Do you generalize what you do when asked? Are you more open to disclosing your job to friends or strangers? Do your children know about your work? Do their teachers know? Do you have any advice to others? Did you find acceptance and excitement about coming out? Are there other coming out stories you think are relevant?

[This post is a part of Fleshbot's Jiz Lee Week.]

Feminist Porn: What’s Good For Her is Good for Us.

I’m off to Toronto for the Feminist Porn Awards, presented by Canadian feminist sex toy store Good For Her. I’ve made the trip each year to celebrate the accomplishments of my peers and network with folks who are making and marketing alternative visions of sex.

This year I’m involved in eleven nominations, including Shine Louise Houston’s CrashPadSeries.com and my own website JizLee.com where I hold my “Karma Pervs” philanthropic erotic art project. Want to see the whole list? Check out my post or visit Good For Her’s 2012 Nominations.

While the parties and good cheer may just seem like a fun time – and they are – the awards are valuable in that they bring a growing media attention to pornography that is specifically reaching diverse consumers. It’s a step towards opening new audiences to the idea of porn and sex-positivity, and encourages the work of new pornographers, especially those outside the conventional mainstream spotlight.

I interviewed Good For Her’s Marketing & Events Coordinator Carla Henderson to see what this year has in store for recognizing porn from a feminist perspective:

Jiz Lee: Have you seen the industry change over the years since starting the awards ceremony? Have the awards themselves changed over the years to accommodate the change?

Carla Henderson: The quality, quantity and diversity have all improved. The filmmaking quality continues to get better and better, the amount of films that are submitted and variety of directors has increased, and the diversity of movies in terms of who is represented and who is directing has grown.

The popularity of the show has also grown such that we have had to move to a bigger venue and the event has become more of a gala with more glitter, more stars and more fanfare every year. It also began as a one night affair — with a panel discussion and awards on the same night. It became too long to hold all in one evening and so we broke it into two — a night of films with a panel of directors/stars and a subsequent night of awards. There is often another night as well; this year Buck Angel is featured with his latest films, a talk and Q&A. One of our partners, ASLAN Leather, has created a post-FPA porn party — after everyone is all revved up, it is a party to celebrate and play.

What rewards and challenges have Good For Her and the ceremony planners encountered in the years creating the event?

It has been a rewarding experience seeing that filmmakers and stars value their nominations and awards, and to see that others are acknowledging it as an endorsement of quality. It has been fabulous to see the events grow in popularity and recognition. Of course both a reward, and a challenge, is to keep the show interesting and fun each year. It has been a challenge to grow and maintain a quality event that is still affordable. We could not do it without our sponsors: Hot Movies for Her, LELO, The Everything To Do With Sex Show, ASLAN Leather and more!

It’s been an ongoing challenge is to combat the assumptions that feminist porn must be either lesbian and/or soft, sweet romance or else it’s not feminist! But we hope that our wide range of nominees will continue to help dispel those beliefs.

What are some of the proudest moments?

Some of the proudest moments are watching the room fill with people and realize that we are not doing all of this work for nothing or no-one. A proud moment is every time we grow — to a two-night affair, to a larger more prestigious venue, and of course we feel proud every year at the end when we see that we accomplished putting on another successful event for hundreds of people.

What are some of the wackiest or unexpected moments?

The 2007 Awards coincided with Good For Her’s 10th anniversary. To celebrate this momentous occasion, CoCo La Creme (our current co-director) jumped out of a custom-built cake. That was a lot of fun. There was also the year we brought Morty Diamond — director of Trans Entities — as a panelist and the whole staff just fell in love with him. We never have the same taste and yet somehow we were all completely enamored!

What’s in store for this year’s events?

This year the Feminist Porn Awards are bigger and better than ever, with five days of scheduled events. Wednesday is Buck Angel’s “Sexing the Transman” presentation. Thursday is our Public Provocative Porn screening with our panel of invited directors, including Erika Lust and Nenna Joiner. Friday is our celebrated gala presentation. And then we finish off with “Making your Open Relationships Work”, a class by Tristan Taormino on Saturday, and a “Dirty Talking” class with Tina Horn on Sunday.

That’s a whole lot of excitement! I’d say “wish me luck”, but winning’s not really the point when it comes to these kinds of events; for me it’s more about the encouragement and community and being introduced to sexy new projects.

Watch the award ceremony online with GirlzPorn.com as they live-stream the show, and follow along on Twitter with hashtag #FPA2012. And while you’re waiting for the festivities, check out these photos from last year’s awards!

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Shrink-Wrapped Pornstars For Karma Pervs

Here’s a sneak peek at the latest “Karma Pervs” photo set. I’m kind of infatuated by it.

But first, what is “Karma Pervs”? In a nutshell, it’s my experimental philanthropic erotic art project, where I raise money for various non-profits and charities that are sex-positive, queer or kink-friendly. I collaborate with photographers and fellow models to create images, and upload the photo sets to my membership site on JizLee.com where people can donate to view. It’s 100% volunteer and 100% inspiring.

This latest one in particular was a BLAST to create. JT is one of the most ingenious photographers I know, and he created the magical contraption – basically a human vacubag – to suck up myself and guest model Arabelle Raphael.

The look is inspired by Photographer Hal’s shrink-wrapped couples and it came out better than I could have possibly imagined. And it felt totally exhilarating! Fans of asphyxiation and tight spaces would love it — it’s like holding your breath under the weight of an elephant.

Check out the gallery here, and zip over to Karma Pervs to make a donation if you wish! Proceeds go to Planned Parenthood. Because the thought of having basic sexual rights denied from us totally sucks.

· Karma Pervs (jizlee.com)

[This post is a part of Fleshbot's Jiz Lee Week. Photos by JT for Karma Pervs.]

Dys4ia: See Inside The World Of A Trans Person

Anna Anthropy, a dot-matrix dominatrix and badass trans artdyke, created a flash-based game describing her experience beginning hormones. While it does not represent the experiences of every trans person, as Anna explains, it is a story about six months in her life after making the decision to start hormone replacement therapy and begin taking estrogen.

Use the arrow keys on your keyboard to navigate the game.

Get a sense about what it feels like to not fit as you try to pass tetris-esque objects through narrow or just plain impossible to fit pathways.

Deflect hate speech from transphobic “feminists” and dodge physical pain and embarrassments.

It’s a clever game to help convey these frustrations, and I found myself tearing up at levels visually marking transformations, love, and acceptance. A great soundtrack, fun graphics, and a moving game. Hat tip to Chris Lowrance, by way of Border House!

Play now at NewGrounds.com.

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New Queer Sex Mags, From Salacious To Ssex Bbox

Do you remember Dirty Found? I loved that magazine, a seedy assortment of hidden sexuality; though I think the “joke” was to shame those who had lost the keepsake or private materials of a sordid encounter, the honest beauty of revealing proof or desire of sexual escapades captured my imagination as a youth.

It’s sad to see queer magazines die. Publications like $pread Magazine were pivotal resources within sex worker and sex-positive communities I came to discover when I first moved to the San Francisco Bay Area in the late 90’s.

On Our Backs Magazine was the first print appearance of baby Jiz Lee; in an article on Shine Louise Houston’s newest “The Crash Pad” movie and featuring myself and fellow baby-pornstar Dylan Ryan in a “casting couch” spread. That was back in 2006 and was one of the last issues before the print world fell away.

But perhaps not all is lost? There are a few new sex mags to spring up and why not use this blogging opportunity to share?

Salacious Magazine is now on its 4th issue and going strong. It’s a print magazine of queer feminist sex art and literature that aims to meld pornography with high art; comics with erotica; titillation with stunning visuals. Created by KD, the main focus of the magazine are comics, however it also includes written erotica, single spot illustrations and photography.

Dirty Queer Magazine is on it’s 4th issue and is a cleanly designed, print-only magazine, published twice a year in Sydney, Australia with a perspective on local and international queer photography, arts and culture. It focuses on in-depth features and photo essays, presenting established and emerging talent with diverse genders, sexes, ages, ethnicities and body types. The magazine is a collectible, building a body of work around queer culture, arts and community.

OP Magazine (OP an abbreviation for “Original Plumbing”) is a quarterly publication that documents diversity within trans male lifestyles through photographic portraits and essays, and personal narratives and interviews. Currently at its 9th Issue, it was created by Amos Mac and Rocco Kayiatos, independently published and distributed out of Brooklyn, New York.

Translady Fanzine is collaboration between Zackary Drucker and Amos Mac (of OP Magazine) and, a transwoman and transman, respectively. It’s a fine art photographic periodical, and focuses on one woman of trans experience per issue, showcasing vivid photographs of the model as she wishes to be seen, and exclusive text of her experience in her own words; visual proof of contemporary trans existence.

[SSEX BBOX] magazine is the tangible manifestation of the [SSEX BBOX] web documentary series, and seeks to expand consciousness by examining and challenging two dimensional, archaic and obsolete understandings of sexuality and gender.

I also wanted to give a few other shout outs:

Butt Magazine is a pink bible of juicy gay boy goodness. Filament Magazine (RIP -2011) was the best women’s magazine on men to date, and while not a periodical, Freeing Ourselves: a Guide to Health and Self Love for Brown Bois by Brown Boi Project is an amazing resource for all masculine of center folks, and the 2012 Brooklyn Boihood Calendar is HAWT.

I happen to have modeled for Issue #2 of [SSEX BBOX], so here’s a small gallery from the shoot for the cover image.

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Vulva 101: The Textbook We Wish We Had

Not too long ago, I wrote a post about the diversity of vulvas from the book I’ll Show You Mine, which offered stories and explicit images of each participant’s vulva. Like other picture books on genitalia, it’s a landmark towards sex-positive body image and proof that more needs to exist.

You want more? How about one-hundred and one more?

“Vulva 101”, a photography book by Hilton Coxwell, presents a photographic study of over one-hundred intimate areas, including essays on his journey and process. It’s a beautiful collection that presents an artful framing of anatomy that can position itself as a broad option for those curious to browse the diversity of down there.

Hilton has recently made an eBook version, and both this and the hardcover version are available through Vulva101.com. He’s also created a pubic hair survey, the data from which may be compiled into the second volume of his book. (Those interested in filling out the survey can be entered to win a free copy of the book itself.)

A beautiful display of angles and spreads, it is also inclusive of at least two pages of post-op transsexual female anatomy. This fact actually makes me yearn for an ALL genitalia picture book, with intersex and non- or pre-op trans* parts and male anatomy. As pervasive as penis is, it too gets shafted when it comes to visual representation in porn-as-sex-ed supersized screen time. Flaccid and non-circumsized members are as rare as large labias and pubic hair. I think we’re all limited in the options of what we have to look at. The chance to compare, contrast, and learn to love our unique designs as we ask, am I normal?

The truth is: we’re each special, unique snowflakes.
Each and every one of us.

· Photos from Vulva 101 (vulva101.com)

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Draw Something… Dirty

My Words With Friends are few and far between these days…

The new procrastination game is Draw Something, which when played among friends is hilarious, and when played with strangers gives me hope in humanity. (Unless of course they WRITE THE FUCKING WORD in which case they can go to hell. WHY would someone DO that!?!)

Anyway, in the last few weeks the game has taken smartphone users by storm.

There’s something comfortingly simple about the idea of a game that puts us all on a more even artistic playing field as we each poke clumsily at our screens, erasing mistakes and taking the opportunity at times to poke a little fun at ourselves while we’re at it.

Here’s a gallery of some dirty drawings, thanks to Draw Something Porn, Aaron Jacob Jones, Nadya Lev, and submissions by Hayley, Penny Arcade, Ellen Stagg, Ela Darling, and the famously amazing iPad artist, Annie Cruz (Drummer, and Whip).  

UPDATE: It has come to our attention that the cup image is originally from Penny Arcade, our apologies for the misattribution.

[This post is part of Fleshbot's Jiz Lee Week.]

Vivaldi Summer Blonde

Hey music lovers,

I want to share something beautiful with you, sweet aural sex.

I’m refraining from posting the lovely soloist’s name, as I can’t be certain whether she’d be comfortable with her name on an adult site, but feel free to click through to the YouTube video to find out more about her work and this particular performance.

If you want to skip ahead to a particularly climactic moment, may I recommend 8:30. 
You’re welcome,
Jiz

[This post is part of Fleshbot's Jiz Lee Week.]

Jiz In Your Blog

Hello dear reader,

Jiz here. Looks like I’ve got a week of guest spots here on Fleshbot.com and I aim to please. It’s been a crazy month for me juggling my fulltime day job with my part-time Jiz biz. It’s involved a lot of traveling, and finishing up my role as Ritchie Valens in Rob Fatal’s “La Bamba 2: Hell is a Drag” which premiers next week in San Francisco. I’ve also been speaking at colleges and sex education centers; with UC Berkeley, Stanford, and CUCCI it’s been an average of one a week!

Then, in a few days I’m off to the Feminist Porn Awards, held in Toronto and produced by Good For Her. I’ll be sure to blog from the road. Crazy April wraps with a presentation at Williams College and I hope to get some weekend time in after that where I can just veg out at the park with my honey and a good book.

BUT!…

Until that blessed down time comes, I’ll be posting a few odd thoughts and things here and there, stumbles from the internets and such.

Fleshbot is super sweet for inviting me to write. 
And you’re super sweet for reading.

Happy Monday!
Jiz

· Photo by CrashPadSeries.com

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